Remember what I said. Be kind to yourself. Always.

So Here I am. About a week after my first blog, and a little longer than a week starting keto. I’m sure you’re all chomping at the bit to hear my progress aren’t you? The first three days were pretty easy I will say. I had lots of proteins like chicken, fish, and ground turkey. I got a lot of my healthy fats from avocados, and natural oils. I was doing great and right on track.

Day 4. Christmas shopping and date night. My significant other and I went to date night I ordered a martini. I know not the best thing on a diet but tis’ the season. We got a cauliflower appetizer. For dinner I had a salmon and some broccoli. Easy right? I’m crushing this diet and life is good.

Suddenly we see a nice gentleman we knew at the bar. He ever so thoughtfully bought us a Christmas drink. Hoo Heyy, now the juices are flowing after my second martini. Merrrryyyy Christmassss! The next thing you know on our way home like a 21 year old college girl, I squeal to my love lets get McDonalds!! And that was when I sabotaged my keto, four days in. I licked my lips as the juicy buffalo sauce and ranch ran down my chin and squeezed out of that chicken sandwich. I washed it down with a large fry and of course a huge fountain diet coke. (they have the best) ever notice McDonalds sodas taste different than anywhere else? Ahh, what a date night. It was one of the most fun spontaneous nights we had in a long time. We laughed all night. I sat in the passenger seat of my car gloriously eating and enjoying every last bite of that sandwich, the only thing I was missing was my party dress. The best part was I had no remorse. So that being said here came another lesson for myself.

ok, ok, so maybe a little remorse did set in. But it wasn’t until the next morning when I had to get up for work and remember the little piglet I was the night before. I repeated my mantra. “Be kind to yourself.” I am human. I am not perfect. I won’t give up. I also realized I don’t want to live so restrictive. I can live in moderation. Clearly the night before wasn’t moderation but it was still ok because I don’t do that all the time. I let myself be free and enjoy something I hadn’t in a long time. Going forward I will try and make healthier choices instead of restricting myself. Maybe I’ll have that wrap but skip the fries and get a broccoli instead. Everything really is about balance after all. And this is a learning experience for me. I know this is something I’ve struggled with staying on track. I’m sure it is for a lot of people. So I’m going to keep trying until something sticks. Thats part of my other saying don’t give up. Ok, so keto failed big whoop. I’m going to keep trying to focus on my health and all of my other goals. Healthy is not just physical its from within. We have to remember that. When we have balance all things will fall into place. I get it, it can be hard to achieve a good balance but we also have to find a balance that works for us. And when one thing fails try another. But please BE KIND TO YOURSELF. Just because one thing doesn’t work doesn’t mean you’re a failure.

I have tried a million things in my life to find out where I want to be. Many would even snicker about all my job or career changes but I didn’t care. I would never settle for something i didn’t like or didn’t make me happy. I always had a passion for life and trying new things. Thats just me and who I am. So love it, or hate it world! I was a barre instructor, an esthetician, I took a realtor course, I even started my own catering business. Guess what? It lead me where I am today. I also learned a lot. I networked with many people, a lot of wonderful people I may add. It took me until my 30’s to realize what I finally want to do. I don’t regret it for a second. I finally found my passion and dream career to be a nurse. Be kind to yourself. You’re not stuck. You don’t need to be stuck in a job, a career, or a relationship. This is your life and you live it how you want to. No one can tell you or live your life for you. Ironically, all of the things I’ve dappled into over the years are all apart of my life today. I’m going to be an RN and have a passion for aesthetics. I want to focus on medical aesthetics and injections. I started a catering business and that taught me a lot, maybe I’ll have my own boutique one day. I love barre and wellness, and here I am writing blogs and reading about Charkas. It all ties together. Your experiences are on purpose.

You don’t always have to understand the direction life is steering you in, but you need to trust it. Lean on your faith, your higher source, power, spirit, whatever it is. But trust the universe is bigger than you, and it will guide you. You just need to listen to your message. You’re not promised tomorrow, so do the best you can today and enjoy every moment.